20 & In Between

Welcome to 20 & In Between! Heavily inspired by SZA (kind of), this blog is going to be all about my 20 Somethings and everything in-between. Now, I’ll give you the pleasure of explaining why I decided to start a blog in the middle of my workday.

Funnily enough, I was actually inspired by the Easter Sunday sermon at my church. I couldn’t really paraphrase any of it for you, but the overall message was to break free from the pressure of your past, present, and future. If you don’t get the correlation, that’s okay, I still don’t either. All I know is that, for whatever reason, hearing that message sent my brain spiraling.

To give you more context, I committed to Syracuse University for my freshman year of college in May of 2024. While I did enjoy my time there, I knew in the back of my head that I wouldn’t be there for long. While waiting to hear back from schools in my senior year of high school, I found that I was becoming more and more disinterested in attending college. There’s no way I wasn’t going to go (meaning there’s no way my parents were going to let me take a gap year, or more accurately, years), I just felt like college was not the ideal environment for me to thrive. I was not wrong.

After contracting every possible virus known to Syracuse University and sleeping an average of 25 hours every week, I had a pretty good feeling about transferring for sophomore year. I had an even better feeling about transferring to an online school where every lecture, and all the assignments and quizzes are completely asynchronous. So, that is exactly what I did.

After finishing freshman year at the end of April in 2025, I started working almost immediately. At first, it was a part time job at a dance studio. Now, I work full-time as the Front Desk Admin at a behavioral health center. I find it so funny that I only made it to my 8am four out of 15 times last year, and now I clock in by 7:55 every Monday-Friday. I think my body finally caught up to my brain, knowing where it wasn’t supposed to be.

Anyway, as a freshly 20-year old, sometimes I feel like I should’ve stayed at school and should be living much more than I do. Every week is the same routine; I clean on Sunday, go to work Monday-Friday and crash by 9pm, and maybe go out or hang out with some friends on Saturday. Maybe. Now, it’s not like I don’t enjoy the comfort of my couch and being a homebody, it’s just such a drastic change from what I was doing last year. It’s also not like I would rather be back in a college setting. It’s more of a whiplash thing, I think. Beats me.

Anyway anyway, let me get to the point. After church on Sunday, I started thinking about all of the things I could be doing with my life right now. I have one more year of my undergraduate degree and most of my friends who are at school are going abroad during the next two semesters. Why shouldn’t I also plan for a semester abroad? Why can’t I travel to Costa Rica and do my assignments on the beach or in a volcano? Who’s saying I can’t pack up my life and move to Malta to open a little bakery? And I’ve always wanted to go to Colorado.

Those were slightly extreme examples, but you know what I mean. I don’t believe that I’m meant to be as stationary as I am right now at 20 years old. I want to be traveling across the globe. I want to be exploring cultures I haven’t yet experienced. I want to sit on my couch on Saturday and not feel like I haven’t accomplished anything I wanted to do that week. And don’t get me wrong, I like my job. It gives me a great amount of experience in the field of psychology and it pays the bills, but just like my body knew I wasn’t supposed to be at Syracuse, my whole entire being knows I should be living differently than I am now. So, while I figure out what would actually be fulfilling for me, I’ll be posting to this blog whenever I want.